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Heart of my own heart whatever befall
Still be my vision O Ruler of all

eager waiting

“The plan of God for me, for this one day, is meant not to trouble but to gladden my heart.” 

-Elisabeth Elliot 

god has been doing so much the past few days. what’s absolutely best for me right now is having my plans shaken every five seconds. as life gets hectic and everything you thought you knew continually gets spattered on the ground, the lord constantly reminds me i’m dependent, that i'm not in control, and that by my own strength i’m not okay.
i have to constantly remind myself that he is a god who is completely sovereign over every aspect of my life.

so i'm here, waiting patiently on him.

with love, mandy

(ps. self portrait from this morning. free lensing.)

peace of song

13 - Joel Mcneely - Solo Piano Score[mp3lemon.net]

21. the happiest birthday

(this image reminded me of you. ha. anyways, if you are reading this, you probably just found clue #10. yeah, i'm making you climb sur le toit. advice: don't fall, it's a long ways down.)

dear bella,
i love you dearly.

i don't consider myself qualified to give you any birthday advice, but people say that pretending to know what you're doing is almost the same as knowing what you're doing. so here we are, and that's what we'll do.

advice enters:
you’ve only got one life to live, so live it dancing. live it laughing. live it with grace.
don’t live it taking yourself too seriously. please wear mismatched socks. walk on your tiptoes like we did when we were little. laugh louder than everyone else in the movie theater. ask lots of questions. stand up for yourself. put glitter on everything tangible. be nice to others. drink copious amounts of tea/coffee. believe in miracles.
also, try to see as much of the world as you can in your short amount of time.
and please—love your flawed, beautiful self wholly.

but you dear, are living a wonderful life already. and for you, i'm not worried at all. your combined wit, wisdom, and wondrousness has baffled me. i am happy, so very happy you are my sister.
you have made me proud, and am sure to only become more so.

i am excited for all the adventures we will have together and alone.
hand in hand or ten million miles apart i know you will be living your heart out. you taught me, so i will too.

i love you.

with love,
mandy

beach boys

featuring la's boy.

precisely

"even though I totally just spent an entire 7 minutes and 45 seconds putting on lipstick.  No bigs.  Let a lady live." -joy the baker

test day.

though i'm not superstitious, my lucky pair of panties have lacy ruffles on them.

i did not wear them today.

damn.